Happy Birthday

So the 30th was my 26th birthday. WOOO. Usual birthday shinnannigans. The point is, I gave myslef until this date to quit smoking. I wanted 26 to be a smoke free year. Follow with me now this was my train of thought..Im tired of smoking. Im doing this for me. Not because it will kill me, because it may never get the chance. (I once nearly choked to death on a red gummy bear. No one is ever safe) I am not doing this for my mother who HATES it and will probably throw a party. Im not even doing it because of the scary smoking wrinkles around Farrah Fawcettes mouth. I am doing it because its expensive! That may sound like a stupid reason compared to all of the reasons in the world to quit, but that is mine. I figured out how much a year (not exact just a ballpark) I am spending on cigarettes. Now I am not going to relay the exact ammount, but let me tell you this..I WILL NO LONGER BE THEIR SUCKER! The first time I was caught with cigarettes I was SIXTEEN. And thats not when I started..thats when I was CAUGHT. I have been a sucker for too long. I like to think myself a strong willed independent kinda gal. But I gave into the idea willingly. You can blame whatever you want on peer pressure and what not. "The movies told me to do it and made it look cool" crap. All of that is crap. We smoke at a young and stupid age because we are young and stupid. Because we dont have the nerve to step up to the kids who are smoking and just say no. Not like the Anti Drug folks who want you to make a statement out of it..but just.."no thanks, im cool". Thats all it would take. I couldnt do that. I admit it. I was young and stupid. But, I kept it up. The smokers cough, the getting bronchitis EVERY year. But these days..times are tough. I will go off ALL DAY about gas prices and how the oil companies are sticking it to us, while I hand over 6.25 for a pack of smokes. I am walking around in shabby clothes and buying cheap makeup because I spend all my money on cigarettes. Now, let me just say, ive got nothing against smokers. The smell doesnt bother me..obviously and statistically smokers are better tippers.

Anyway, like I said, I gave myself until Wed. the 30th. Well, I decided that a wednesday was a crappy day to try and change your life, so I actually quit on Monday. I celebrated my birthday the weekend before and had my last cigarette Sunday. I even started walking around without a lighter in my pocket. Every other time I quit, I would still carry my lighter. I know that sounds stupid. But now, I feel that I am done. I HOPE that I stay done. I could really use a new pair of shoes. :)

So wish me luck! And anyone out there fighting the good fight..I wish YOU luck. But let me ask you, are we like alcoholics? Once a smoker always a smoker? Should we have a support system and a yearly jambouree? .